Dear Puteri Yasmin,

Erm, Hi :D Enjoying the game? Hmm, Sorry to waste atleast 2 or 3 minsof your time. And if anybody is reading this letter/blog except you, Pls ask for it back. i dont want any of them reading this.

Straight to the point okay? I'm sorry for what had happen. I just hope you treasure all the memories we had :) Please be strong kay sweetgirl? your friends are there for you. So yeay. whenever you need me, just text. im just a text/phonecall away Ermm, I miss you. Do you? Hahaha. Okay lame. I wanted to talk to you that day but erm, I guess its not my lucky day?And, I saw you cry but Im not sure its about what. I hope it not about me. Cos if its about me, I should back away from your life. Like, really back off. When Idah and Sue told me that you gonna ask for break by that night. I was shocked. Very shocked. I control that tears from coming out. Cos I was with Iszuan, Dolly and also AzyannZ. I dont really show that Im weak or Im crying infront of others or in public. I want you back in my life. But, somehow, I dont believe in second chance even if it was meant for me. Im scared to hurt you over and over again. I scared History might repeat by itself.

After my relationship with Amira, I guess my heart has turn to stone. I dont really feel anything except for the pain in my heart whenever I read your tweet. I dont know it was jealousy or whatsoever but, I know it got something to do with you. I might not show you that I love you but, Truth is. I do. I might be going around saying that Im okay. But, For sure, I will stop. Its not like I really want to back away from your life. But, The way your friends attitude and stuff. It makes me feel like, Im not worth it. They looked at me one kind, They stared at me. They are angry at me. I have to except the fact that you're not Amira. And you're unique in your own way. And I should be the one who treasure you not you treasure me. I should be the one who should be lucky to have you not the other way round. People keep on saying that, I should be lucky to have you in my life cos you dont control me that much, You still kept quiet even if I was the one who hurt you alot. But I was stubborn. Very stubborn. I didnt hear what they say. I dont even care about what they are talking.

I totally regret now. I really do. But, I guess its too late huh? Puteri, If theres a chance. Im willing to have you back in my life. Seriously. You were the reason for everything. You make me stop drinking, You controlled my feleings and emotional. You were the one who calm me down even if I was bloody hell angry at people. But, I dont think you would eventually accept me back. I wanted to ask if you willing to have me back but, I have tweeted something on my 2nd account. And that was, IM FEAR OF REJECTIONS. Yes I do. Pls puteri. Be strong. And I will be there for your final. I promised. But, I wont be standing near the pitch or something. Right after the game, I will quickly walk-off. Im sorry ): Love you SweetGirl :D


I somehow know that Farhan is contacting with you. So yeay :D If he does, Good for you then. Move on baby ):

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