Together we beat as one

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

I currently have no mood in everything . Something has popped out into my mind and that cause me not to do my exams properly . Only Baaaaby knows what had happen to me . Infacts , its personal/family problems . Indeed I'm dissapointed in someone here . Yes , I really do . One minute I was happy , next thing you know , I broke into tears . To think about it , You are stupid . Yes , you are ! If only I could rewind the time , I would spend my whole time hanging around with you . If only , IF theres a second chance , I would spend my whole life with you and our family . Each years , we started to drift apart . We has to continue our own life without each other . One day we are a family , the next day , We are not . For now , I have to think alot . Family , Cousins , You , Relationship , Friends and importantly , exams . How can I overcome all this ? Me myself is still weak in life and you made it more difficult ?! I swear if I sees [insertname] outsides , I gonna confront him and then kill him even if it means that I have to spend my whole life in there ! Family comes first and you know me very well , can ?! You were the first to hold me in your hands when I was born . You watched me grow eventhough you were in school . You scolded me when I did something wrong . And now , things had changed . I wasnt there for you all this time . I started to regret every single thing that I wasnt there helping you . All I did was giving you a hell lots of shits . You manage to tolerate all my fucking attitude yet I cant tolerate yours . I know its unfair and thats why I want to turn back time and be there for you ! From now onwards , I will be there when you need a shoulder to cry on , ears to listen to all your problems , hands to hug you and legs to kick any guys dicks that ever tried to hurt your feelings . I swear , if theres anyone else wanna hurt you ever again , I will be there behind you back and kick that fucking guys dicks except for your mataer now . I want you and him hingga naek pelamin . I want My future-brother-in-law to always be there for you and making you strong as last time .

Hingga kahk Dydy kekal bersama Abng Rasul .

I love Nur Fadhilah binte Rahim forever and ever !

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